anewstart

2006-06-11T18:19:00.000+08:00

I DEMAND FOR A RELINK

2006-06-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

I had spent the whole day doing the index of my website.

And yes, i am back from Tioman <3

2006-05-21T20:38:00.000+08:00

I choke on my rice and nearly spit it out.
My drool is threatening to come out.

AND OMG. I really do not think i am able to sleep anymore.
ITS OMFG.

OMFG. HALF NAKED DONGBANG.

CRYSTAALLL <3
she made me hyped + the pictures.

2006-05-21T19:28:00.000+08:00

I am finally blogging. Blogging seem to be such a chore nowadays.
Walked the Big Walk today, it was not taxing at all- Surprise?

Today is Jinho's Birthday
샌길추가합니닿!
샌길추가합니닿!
사랑하는진호오빠!
샌길추가합니닿!
(not sure whether it is correct since i just typed it out myself)

I need a break.
Have a break, want Kit-Kat?

2006-05-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

>=D tired.

2006-05-17T17:57:00.000+08:00

I am such a freak because i want to redo my blogskin.
It will be done preferably tonight? or ASAP.

YAYYY! WE ARE HAVING A BBQ NEXT WEEK! =DD
ITS LIKE FINALLY~ since december i have been waiting!
Michelle's dad fabulous chicken wings.
LOL!

Michelle and grace came over just now.
Michelle was dissing and imitating JinHo.
arghh, small eyes and ugly so what?!
He's talented and charming when he sings.

Tomorrow there is a 3G outing. Damn freaking early can, its like 8.30 at Harbourfront MRT. I live at Bedok mind you.
My school holiday just gone like that.
After that going to East Coast to meet grace. Do what? Depends.

TODAY IPW WAS FUN but tiring. I mean i didnt had much sleep last night and having mud all over me ain't a good feeeling. Somehow i had mud on my hands, legs, EVEN THIGHS ALSO CAN HAVE! When i was walking on offshore of Pasir Ris Beach, it went slish slosh slish slosh. Too rowdy but HECK.
I Like the seahair or is it sea hare? I went "EYY! THAT PURPLE THING AGAIN!" and then Mrs Poh from afar went "Not purple thing lah! Its the sea hair/hare!". ROFL.
It gives off purple dye/ink when it is being stepped on.
WAHA.
Cynthia lightly use her feet to touch it, the animal only contracted. Its like a brown glob you know!
The most disgusting part was that when the tide comes in, in the lower part where there are plenty of algae and where swimmers might go- THERE WERE MORE THAN 20 OVER SEA URCHINS. Imagine ever stepping on one, not to mention a whole group of it.
WTH! It is just plain disgusting.
-I refuse to hold the tray cause i feel eww when the thingy moves.
We saw anemones, crabs, jellyfish (dead one) but its pretty big like 40cm to 50cm?,crustaceans etc.
WAHA! I like the swimming crab species- tetaliar?(i dont know how to spell) IT IS DAMN FEROCIOUS! IT WAS FIGHTING BACK WHEN WE TRIED TO TURN IT OVER WITH A SPADE AND IT PINCERS WENT CLANK CLANK CLANK. (soft soft one larh)

JINHO IS LOVE.

2006-05-16T18:34:00.000+08:00

Random

>I am feeling so much better.
>I bought my booties!
>I want to pierce my ears again.
>I wish JinHo is by my side. (His imperfectness make him perfect.)
>The song on my blog is Yakhan Namja (weak man) by ShinHwa.
>Minwoo's every word in the song seems so bittersweet such that it stung.
>Clubbox and Bittorent is waging a war with me at this very moment.
>I dislike the lack of privacy that i am having.
>ShinHwa is my first love.
>WeiTing is treating me to Jack's place.
>I hate tatoos.
>Junsu's laughter brightens up my day.
>I fear for the day i will meet them.
>I had Gelare and KFC today.
>Tmr is YinMei's birthday.
>The day after is Amelia's birthday.
>Weiru had lent me a book today.
>I would rather stay in my surreal land.
>CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! VANNESS WU ACTUALLY PERFORMED IN INKIGAYO.

I am seriously addicted to the pain that only occurs when my ears are pierced. The tingling shocking sensation seems to have jolt me up from reality.
Just one more, please.

2006-05-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

Emotionally worn out.

I lashed out my family and at my friends
Be it right or wrong, my unreasonably-side stands
Sudden realization shock through me, i had burst.
My lips trembled and the tears fall
Those tears that i have been trying to keep it in all
I ran away from my disappointments and regrets
The tears surfacing proves it all
It is just my dislike of falling from grace
Whether this is important or not, my proudness can't relents.
The heart is aching full of regrets.

2006-05-14T21:58:00.000+08:00

These few days, i am feeling rather paranoid regarding certain stuffs. It feel like i am sinking into the hole of depression again.

Many thanks to crystal dear <3
Words cannot express how much i love her.

2006-05-14T12:29:00.000+08:00

TYPE B:
People with this blood type are flexible, passionate, creative, unconventional and have excellent concentration.
POSITIVE:
Indepedent
Flexible
Candid
Sensitive
Passionate
Persuassive

NEGATIVE:
Unpredictable
Indiscreet
Lazy
Impatient
Overbearing

SUITABLE CAREERS:
Cook
Hair dresser
Military leader
Talk show host
Journalist
Golfer

2006-05-14T00:20:00.000+08:00

It is all Yitian's fault. =[

The old primary school days.
Filled with memories of my primary schoolmates.
Not too many to list but a little more than using of fingers to count.
Rachel, Diana, Charlene, YiTian, XinYi, MuJia, Dineesha, Nida, Christine, RuJing, Tessa, Deborah, Clare, Claire, Michelle, Christie, Farah, Karen Thomas, Nazirah, Elisa, Abigail, Liqing, Slyvia, Xiaxue etc.
Their laughter and smiles used to make the days
The days where i was still looking forward to school.

I have changed, have you all too?
I misses people calling me panda? I misses people pronouncing my name the chinese way instead of the english way. (Like how diana calls me) I misses all the fun that we had together.
The spastic moments, the crapping moments or in fact, the girl-school moments.

Sincerely from the bottom of my heart,
I misses you all. <3

2006-05-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

Fuck, i want to upload my picture but yeah, its not working!
Arghh.

Screw all of these.

I am entering the Big Walk. [:
-laugh all you want.

2006-05-13T18:12:00.000+08:00

This is so not a diet week.
FUCK.

I am feeling so screwed.

2006-05-12T17:15:00.000+08:00

Sometimes to destress, a book by James Patterson or Agatha Christie does help. :]

2006-05-11T18:01:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS DAMN SHANKING FUN.
Firstly, me and michelle was late? Keke cause we were both at home at the computer (me was finding my specs and err. doing stuffs) while she was uploading pics but she was later cause i had sent her a song and had asked her to help me load it in her phone.
So we were ten minutes late for Kbox.
But KBOX WAS DAMN FUN.

Lian Ai-ing, RISING SUN` that mao yi song? was well the mtv was stupid.
err, the jj's sarang hae yo song?
Then grace chow chow selected a number of fast songs and yes, we were all damn tired out from Kbox.
+ my all time famous song- One night in Beijing
--my voice is still weird.

Then we went to cut out hair. Me, grace chow chow and michelle.
HAHA! Grace`*Remember to think before you speak =P
The haircut all turned out well i guess but i think we were all not very satisfied with the hairdresses himself.
Upon thinking of piercing my ears, i had the jitters.
Michelle: AIYAH! let's go pierce now! get it over and done with!
-i pierced first since i dont want to scare myself by letting her pierce first.

I wanted to pierced only one earhole.
I literally went "ouch" cause it hurts like hell but then it wasnt that bad i think? Cause it is painful when it went in so i was like,"forget it, i also pierced the third for my the other ear!"

I saw the chee yang guy at Far East. He was with this bunch of hwa chong girls also larh. Then i thought of Yin Mei's present cause i thought she really like cheeyang. But the four of us had no pen or paper. ARGHH. So i was still waiting for her reply and she went "chey, i dont care about him".
Watch out CHU YIN MEI. >=[

We took alot of pictures but michelle aw wei ling camwhore the most.
she said she got the picture taking disease, i am calling it camwhoring.
xP
Lalala, in the end me, grace, cynthia and michelle wanted to take neoprints because of some special reasons. (for once! Michelle actually agreed, at the road outside tangs, i had jumped up and went "ya"- it sure was embarrassing)
BUT X)
we were all shagged out.

Ta-da.

2006-05-11T08:04:00.000+08:00

ying> michelle

teach me how to blade. [;

today, i am going to be out again.

i totally love once in a lifetime <3

2006-05-10T21:03:00.000+08:00

Once in a lifetime, fly to the stars..

That sentence had triggered the flow of my tears. Some things just cannot be explained in words, love can't. It is just this sense of relief? satisfaction? proudness? sadness? that i am feeling.
From march 24th 1998 all the way to today, 10th may 2006- they made me proud that i am their fan.
(yes,imaybeoneoftheircountlessfans butilovethemmorethanwordscansay)
I will never regret the countless number of foolish actions which i had did, typed or said.

They are more than an idol. They are what made me remember most of my precious moments, they keep my diary mind book in check. They make me reflect on what i am today, on how much i have changed.
They have matured and so do i.
Many things had changed since 2003. It was only three years ago but.. it seems so long.
It is not love, not an infactuation, not a crush, not just idolising. It is feeling? attraction? memoirs? which words cannot express.

Perhaps the reason why i am wanting to drift away is the fact that they will be gone in just a flash of light, i do not want 2006 to end.
ShinHwa WILL WIN a DAESANG this year, and it is not ONLY ONE.
Many bonsangs too.
Two years without your source of inspiration`love`hope, not even knowing their current situation and all.
Imagine how you would feel?

I am trying to not imagine it.

I am not afraid of getting my hopes up high.
I am only afraid of letting my heart cry.
The way it aches when it cry
is so different from
The way my heart speaks when my hopes are up high
It is so different that i fear the changes in me, once again.

2006-05-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

Although i told cheryl and leena that i am going to sleep but i shall just blog first x)

Today was relatively a sucky day. Cynthia said my voice sounds like a guy and eer, i still cannot sing the high parts of The Club.
A maths paper 2 was BullShit. I should have done all my term 2 homework instead of copying all the way, BooHooo. What a letdown.
Chinese paper 2 seems to be Greek Paper 2 instead. It is like the whole comprehension passage is going in all direction and there ain't a focus. For sure, it was hard. Seriously, thanks to MY Chinese teacher man.
She like totally rock. NO.

Tomorrow is physics and it is my last exam. WooHoo!
Going out with the 3G girls <3

Thursday- With ShortCut` (cynthia;grace;michelle;michele;me) to KBox` cutting of hair and piercing of earholes.
It seems like we always go cut our hair as if we owned the salon and the price is FREE.

7.30 p.m. - PIANO

Friday- IMM WITH THEM TOO <3
Well, i mean i wont be sick of going out with them one! I misses it instead. So much fun awaiting!
I very suaku one, i dont think i have ever been to IMM.
Grace chow chow honey insisted on going to Suntec so that she can catch the LG AD.

Saturday- Not sure yet but might be meeting up with CHOW CHOW.
CHOW CHOW- CHOMP CHOMP- EDIBLE

-prays that she will not come to my blog

Ok. I have finished ranting!

2006-05-08T23:20:00.000+08:00

ROFL. I just knew of how Hankyung got passed the SM CHINA audition in 2001.
Song he had sang: The moon represents my heart (xue liang dai biao wo de xin)
Dance: Chinese Traditional dance.

HAHAHAHAA!
Joke of the century man.
I bet it was because of his looks that he got through, thats like so effing true.

Maybe i shall go for plastic surgery and then go audition in korea or LA.
-That is such a bimbo thought. :P

Horror of the week: Sungmin adores Zhang ZiYi. I can do with Gong Li or Michelle Yeoh but i dislike Zhang ZiYi.

"The CLub" is so hard to sing, now that i am having a terrible sorethroat and flu, my voice sounds so out of breath and hoarse. Not to mention when i sing, it sounds like i lack of oxygen.
Waha.

I seriously thinks my medicine makes me high.

2006-05-08T12:50:00.000+08:00

I finished making this layout in like er.. almost 2 hours? Lol!
It is so orangey that gives it a ShinHwa's feeling.

Dum dee dum. I am still coughing badly. Left macs early to go home.

OHH YEAHH.

I shall announce again, title song- ShinHwa's Once in a lifetime.

2006-05-08T05:52:00.000+08:00

Amazingly i am awake when i had slept at close to 2 last night?
Reason? I could not sleep even after i had tossed and turned, coughing non-stop at the same time.

Yay.
At least dongbangshinki is coming to malaysia.

2006-05-07T15:43:00.000+08:00

Someone just stab me or either stop my mucus from flowing.
I should be having a fever today if i had not took antibiotics ytd.
I have been sneezing like 7372526543724372 times today and my nose is fiery red like rudolph. TToTT

Good news of the week that will cheer me up; Most prolly going with sophia unnie and michelle unnie to Bong Bong Noraebang <3
Can't wait.

2006-05-06T17:18:00.000+08:00

Blog's song- Once in a lifetime.

Earlier today, my dad and i had an interesting conversation.
This was how it went,
me: How come the MP earn 23000 one? I want to be MP le.
Dad: Where got so much? 13000 only
me: Anyway, still earn quite a lot what!
OH yeah. I don't want a lexus or a lamborghini le, i want a house!
Dad: House for what?
me: YOu can call it a future investment but right i calculated, next time if i buy house, the price will be very expensive so now you buy for me first. Next time when i grow older then i renovate it to my style.
.
.
.
talking about houses, i drifted off to how carefree a non-married person is.
Then to what kind of guy i should marry to.
Dad: Don't marry a poor guy. You will suffer.

While i am trying to self-hook myself up with Junsu or Minwoo.
They are rich guys ey?

LOl. But i still think i love my freedom too much.

Just like a bird who can soar high up in the sky
I want to spread my wings and fly up high
No worries or responsibilities to hold me down
Till the day my face creased into a frown
It's the day i am falling down.

2006-05-05T05:34:00.000+08:00

SS- sri lanka ireland protestants catholics indian tamils sinhalese
i am getting all mixed up.

Guess what?
SuJu is going to be the guest at DONGBANG CONCERT IN MALAYSIA!
OMFG. IMAGINE 1715 HOT GUYS on the stage, either dancing to SMYL or something ;D

>=[ i seriously hope i can go.
i mean i want to meet heechul :p

2006-05-04T04:16:00.000+08:00

Step by Step!

Sounds familar? It was a dongbangshinki performance on december 30th 2004, i seriously knew i had watched it somewhere long long ago.
Finally! It had came to my mind, 30th of dec is one of the KBS award show and 2004 was the shinhwa 7th jib, i think dl-ed all the lq performances. I SHOULD have the video if not for 20gb of files gone and it was all LQ! U.U
Let me think, the comments i made when i watched it back then was "ew, they are so gay! " click*, i stopped watching.

Random note.
Junsu's butt was bouncier too.

2006-05-03T05:32:00.000+08:00

I had dozed off in the afternoon around 5pm. There goes my time for studying Emaths, to think i had actually plan to study Emaths for 4 hours which is maddening, now to think of it. The time is 5.31 a.m. now, woke up barely less than 1 1/2 hours ago. The determination i had in me was gone.

So long as you care.
The heart would still be a whole.
Such that you do not care.
The heart beat gradually dies down.
If you had cared.
The heart would have been basking in eternal bliss.

Why bother caring now?
The heart is stoned cold.

2006-05-01T15:54:00.000+08:00

All that angst
All those lies
All that money
which makes people blind
All that love
All that i hope
Resulted in this pathetic form of mine

2006-04-30T20:17:00.000+08:00

Dearest Friends & bestfriend

A call from you is enough to make my day, a smile from you is enough to reassure me. Through the ups and the downs of my life, you have always been there for me morally although not physically. I really appreciate it all.

Chingoo yah, sarang hae yo.

2006-04-28T05:59:00.000+08:00

Today is the starting of my Mid-Year Exams.

2006-04-22T09:33:00.000+08:00

Michelle> meaning?

I am packed for the whole day today.

2006-04-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

I felt nauseous when i speak to you, my eyeballs felt like turning inside out.
In short, FUCK YOU!
I hate your bimbo manners, i hate your fucking attitude, i hate the fact that we are still so close and you know me so well. I HATE YOUR FUCKING SOUL AND BODY.

FUCK YOU MAN.

2006-04-20T16:57:00.000+08:00

Marks of my reminiscing

Less than an hour ago, i was on the computer viewing the MNET! countdown Shinhwa performance and now i am still grinning widely from the elation and estascy. The starting tune of each performance seems to have brought me back to the old times especially Perfect Man. Thanks to this song, i ventured back even further and the 2002 World Cup Performance`Euphoria Concert performance`Ting concert performance flashes in my mind. What could have brought up such a great response from my dead brain and morbid soul- none other than Shinhwa.

2006-04-19T23:25:00.000+08:00

Me & you

At the beginning when our friendship had started off well, everything was fine and life was pleasant such that everyday was sunny. I let out my secrets and you told me yours with longing trust- vice versa but then things had changed. We were strangers embarking on a journey to gain more knowledge and to learn about you and me but then came the storms and the rainy days. You could say- corrosion had taken place such that things were no longer the same.
One year later and now i am back on the same journey, the familar winding trees that passes by me which trigger the awakening of my sealed up memory as i make my way to the destination. It left me wondering that will it be the same again?

2006-04-17T20:48:00.000+08:00

Inspired by beauty and the beast.
Many a times we fantasized wishing that we are caught in a fairytale-liked romance being whisked away in limos or benz, dancing the night away at the Renaissance or Swissotel or perhaps engaging in a heated passionate exercise with the love of your life against the dark red velvet bed covers where clothes are strewn everywhere. However as the reponsibilities of a work week knock us out of dream land, we are back to reality again. All that were glittering and shimmering in the fantasy had faded to a mere illusion thus pushed to our subconcious mind waiting to be uncovered one day. =]

I am a girl, a girl who is no more than 15 yet doubtful of herself; doubtful of her charms and doubtful of her existence here on earth. Just like a stem of rose which pricks even though it may looks exquisite on the exterior. Beneath this facade of mine lies the insecurity, the lack of confident and self-esteem. The insecurity that i feel on whether my friends will love me for who i am, whether i will eventually be an outcast someday and whether i am actually worth being cared for. The lack of confident and self esteem that makes me uncertain regarding some of my decisions. I am a girl who do not yearn for much, not swarovski jewelleries or hermes and burberry- but all i want is some care and concern and a smooth sailing life. I am a girl who fantasizes about members of a boyband supposedly soon to be mine, wishing and hoping but it will never come true.
I am a girl living my life just as any other teenager but in my status of a girl living in this world, i am a nobody.

2006-04-17T13:56:00.000+08:00

*screams*

JUNSU GOES TO JUNSOOLOVER and DONJUNSU <3

2006-04-16T17:38:00.000+08:00

I am having a fever. =[

2006-04-14T21:44:00.000+08:00

LOL.

cynthia and michelle is love.
but

crystal is REAL love!

-thats so random!

2006-04-14T20:17:00.000+08:00

I went to watch Reincarnation with cynthia today (:
It was overall a thrilling show but now i don't dare to sleep alone!
Michelle is having a sorethroat! LALALA~ yet she still can scream/shout/yell. =O=;;
Get well soon!!

2006-04-14T10:43:00.000+08:00

The video of jaejoong apologizing made me cried <3
OPPA HWAITING!

2006-04-12T21:53:00.000+08:00

It is ironic how i cry myself to sleep everynight.

2006-04-11T19:20:00.000+08:00

Well, i scored. (:

2006-04-10T19:05:00.000+08:00

Often everything that is revolving around me felt so surreal.
Sometimes spastic and fake- as if taunting the devil inside of me.
I find myself reaching out to touch it, hence gripping it tighter and swirling into self-deception so as to create a fairytale for myself.
Then when i thought that everything was perfect, my world crumble into pieces.
Destiny-fate-karma, how mankind deceives themselbes.
Spread my wings and soar higher but instead i am lost into the vast abysses of space and time.
One word. One conclusion and one explanation.
Reality.

By the way, MICHELLE MADE ME LAUGHED HELLA LOADS ON FRIDAY TOO. <3
She also made me lost my appetite by talking about elephant shit and some philosophy book on some illness that she went talking about it for the whole day.
I had noticed a trend in the michelle-ness talkshow, for January 2006- it was the twins. February 2006- it was her cinderella (GOODNESS SAKE! i had actually thought it was HEECHUL!) Mid-march 2006 (continuing)- Her funny guy (arihant)-however his name is spelled. LOl.

Eunice asked me why did i not post?
Now i am going to ask her in my blog, why did she not tag? >:[
ACTUALLY i think that many of them out there did not tag too!

Saturday started off with a boring morning but ended with me wondering whether i had gained any weight :x
My relatives came over on friday! MY COUSIN IS SO CUTE!
Sunday was as usual busy because it was my mom's birthday! =D

Regarding the whole jaejoong controversy, i only hope he had understood what it means by being a SINGER- simplified, a famous person. Though his punishment met out by AVEX jap co. was harsh but i think they tried their best to settle this whole inccident peacefully.
Jaejoong oppa, i will be behind you all the way.

Stardom
Sometimes i just want to let the devil inside of me to run amok
Often i want to be just like any other teenager that drink` party n drive.
Amidst the endless night, i find myself wanting a company- a girlfriend.
Why can't i let go of all these?
The attraction of stardom is too great; it is like a dream to good to be true.
However the price of freedom is too heavy too.
Interest soon became a must-do; just like a performing robot.
Actually with a smile plastered on my face, my heart is breaking within.
Nonstop of practicing, dancing and singing; this is my life.
With a wave or smile from me; girls go crazy.
How much do they know of the real me? They stood there with their support by buying my albums- i earned their money.
They shrieked, they screamed, they yelled, they pulled my hair`clothes`touched me.
I want to yell out loud, "I AM NOT A SPECIMEN ON EXHIBITION!" -but i can't.
Praying to god, i can only be thankful that i have my family and the rest of the guys with me.

-Is that how they feel at times?

2006-04-07T18:46:00.000+08:00

TODAY AFTER SCHOOL WAS DAMN FUN!
x)

I had langdu rehearsal with the rest of the girls so my mum came to fetch us with the exception of cynthia to Bedok's KFC! LOL! We both order a set each larh, but somehow our "lunch" ended at 4+ when we reached there around 2.30 i think?
Soon, around 3? Cynthia and dexter joined us! =P
How do you expect me to be able to EAT my food properly with that guy sitting down there making remarks every now and then. BLEAGH. I laughed very hard and very loud- many many times. LOLS!
Actually when i was not laughing, the rest were larh ok! SO.. KEKE!
I am feeling so high now.

Epik High- Fly!

2006-04-06T20:54:00.000+08:00

To -my other partner holding claim of junsu-,

I do not care whether you repeated your studies
I cannot not care whether you are upset
I cannot not care because you are my friend
I do not care how you think of me;
All i know is that i will be there for you

-Ying

I REALLY LOVE AND ADORE YOU. CHEER UP ALRIGHT?

Random.
I shut everything out with just closing of my eyes
I refuses to let the tears fall just by holding on to that breath
Eyes. Tears. Blood. Knife.
They hold the power to tell my lines.

Trickling down as if one at a time
Blood. Tears.
Spreading further out as if trying to conquer my whole soul
Aches. Anguish. Angst.
The sharp light that pricked my eyes as if the knife had pricked my soul
Knife- Sharp, dangerous and hurting.
Till the day that i will let go, it echoes soundly.
Too late, i am already being manipulated by my brains.
It already gave in- as the the red blush liquid sprinted out of my wound
Slowly and temptingly, i was being sucked into a whirlpool being spinned round and round.
I then smiled.

There she laid on the marble floor in an angel like stance but because of the blood- she looked like an angel who had been tainted.
Fury, helplessness, anguish, guilty- all in one shot, it was hard to express my feelings then in words but i know, the aching pain in my heart could have jolly well killed me on the spot- take my soul now please. There is no meaning of me living on when she is gone. No longer can i have her caressing me; no longer can i hear my name coming out of her sweet suple lips; no longer is she living either and for the second time in my life, i had cried.
The stinging aches is far worse than anything i had ever felt, it was worse than if i had been thrown into a sea of needles, if i had been scalded by hot boiling water... i really could not take it. It came too sudden, too shocking until it seems that facing reality is going to knock the life out of me.

-to be continued-

2006-04-05T21:54:00.000+08:00

I am so frustrated with this life of mine.
Oh, like what the fuck.

(i just felt like saying that)

Right now chatting to crystal unnie. Did i mention before, i love her? =D

2006-04-03T15:38:00.000+08:00

HAHA!
I am secretly using the computer during E-learning.

Bernice is an arse. She called me stupid.
BooHoo!

2006-04-02T15:16:00.000+08:00

It is ironic how people can assume and criticize when they do not even know what is going on.
It is ironic how people do not think, do not observe and shoot off the mouth even before anything.
It is ironic how they think that those who are not hurting are the ones who are hurting the most.
It is ironic how they think that they are the best.
It is sad to see how brainless you are, only seeing things on the surface- Studying and getting good grades is not everything when your personality proves to be otherwise.

I did not even pointed the knife at you, it was being referred to someone else. Are you that guilty of it that you thought it was you? But judging from your nickname, i cannot help but assume you are pointing it at me.

HAH. Enlightened me please.

2006-04-02T14:43:00.000+08:00

The greatest love of all is easy to achieve.
You'll need to love yourself is the greatest love of all.

I refused. I struggled. I resisted.
All in vain.
Denying myself of the reality.
The enormous hatred brewing inside of me, rumbling and moaning wanting to escape.
Please, do not trigger it.
I am trying my best to soothe it. Trying my best to pretend that nothing had ever happened.
Just don't.

2006-04-01T20:04:00.000+08:00

Today was great [:
i love cynthia and michelle

but i despise this girl.

2006-04-01T10:48:00.000+08:00

Time is a great healer but a bad beautician.

2006-03-28T20:16:00.000+08:00

I was thinking.
How unhappy i had become?
How self-concious i had become?

There was once a girl
Always smiling bright and laughing hard
Her laughter would ring in everyone's ear
Making sure that her happiness is knowned.

Not more than half a year later
She saw her reflection in the mirror
The girl wondered and pondered
What had become of her that the reflection she saw was not "her"

Flashbacks rapidly flicking in her sight
She was taken on a journey through the past few months
Hot tears started to roll down her cheek gently
Not long, the toilet was flooded with sobs

I saw that girl huddling herself and crying herself out in a corner
My heart twisted and wrenched in pain; the sympathy i felt for her
The girl after crying picked upself up
Braving on a smile and anxiously trying to assure that everything was alright
Deep inside, where her brains think and her senses feel, she knew it was not.

Just several days ago, the girl spoke to me
She said all of that which had happened was part of the cycle of Life
Not daring to oppose her words, an tranquil silence filled the air
Garnering all her confidence, the girl sauntered away
My tears fell as i stared at her fading backview

Searching my heart. It was the unevitable truth which was hard to deny and not give any regards to.
She is me.
I was her.

2006-03-28T19:58:00.000+08:00

I am waiting for my CD-Rs to arrive.
I cannot wait to burn all my videos, i got freaking 9gb of videos pending to be DOWNLOADED. And err, yes, my computer is left with only 115mb.
Speaking!
Today was horrible! By the way, remember that i named my FREAKING BASTARD ASS OF A HELL chinese teacher my MOST HATED. [:
Her chinese drawl slang when she speaks gets on my nerves BADLY.
The UNIQUE way her eyes roll when she speaks drives me INSANE badly.
That woman's ATTITUDE tackled me hard as it made me realise not all teachers are SAINT.

In short and sweet, i hate her.

2006-03-27T20:44:00.000+08:00

Will you ever realise, nothing is ever going to change?
-i doubt you will.

2006-03-26T13:22:00.000+08:00

-deleted-

:]

2006-03-25T13:48:00.000+08:00

sighs.

i felt as if i had intruded on something.

2006-03-23T20:29:00.000+08:00

-removed due to layout constraint-
Shinhwa's 8th anniversary picture

2006-03-22T21:09:00.000+08:00

I am falling harder and harder.
Just by falling in love with you, my heartbeat is increasing.
Not minwoo, not junsu by you.

2006-03-22T19:53:00.000+08:00

i listened to First Love- Shinhwa.
I was reminded of my past. From the very first day i started liking shinhwa. The amount of people i had befriended because of them. How close we bonded because of them. How at first i could not differentiate minwoo/dongwan. How i love minwoo oppa till now.
All the answers to the above questions flashes in my mind.
Minwoo's look back then. Shinhwa's look back then.
Back then, the first korean song i learned was Perfect Man followed by First Love. How- because of shinhwa, my interest in KPOP build up over the years.
It have almost been 3 years.
The bunch of guys who made me laugh/cry.
An emotional attachment i have with them.

Hyesung's weird hairstyles. The kendo one, crew cut etc. His voice. Hyesung had matured alot throughout this three years. Hyesung unnie, now i have to address you as Hyesung oppa!
MY husband-minwoo oppa. Back then when i first read chenya's fanfic. I was interested in your character but i had mistaken you for dongwan. I started to read more fanfics and went to research on Shinhwa. You shoot the bullet not at your enemy- but through my heart. You were the one who kept me living with hope each day till now. Your silverish purple hair in First Love, i will never forget. That scrawny body dancing sexily in "Only One", greenish silver hair in "Wedding march". That guy who had a mop flop hair in Eusha Eusha. That boy who was dancing enthusiastically in Hyegulsah. The one who stolen my heart in 2003. Your smile, the smile who can tilt my lips up. The pair of eyes who smiles too. Only one, Lee Minwoo. Your raspy voice in "Just one night"- yes, i was jealous. Jealous. I envied Shin Ae alot for being able to be your girlfriend- that is how much i yearned for you. I believed you had your reasons for choosing ShinAe. Now that it is over, do I-over million of girls still stand a chance? (I doubt so)
Minu/minwoo/minbong/bongie
You are the one.
I love you so much that it feels so surreal now.

SHINHWA CHANGJO
EVERLASTING MYTHOLOGY
-An everlasting addiction

2006-03-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

A long time since i last posted. =P
SCHOOL HAVE BEEN DRIVING ME CRAZY =D
but, this friday is shinhwa's ANNIVERSARY
Shinhwa oppa deul, HAPPY 8TH BIRTHDAY <3

2006-03-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

I am suffering from a fucking hard migrane.
Just woke michelle up from her sleep- i am sorry <3
I am in great agony that my tears are flowing nonstop, signing off now.

2006-03-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

I just realised, i am never broke. -i do not have any savings either.
I could lay my hands on whatever posters/ dongbang/shinhwa stuffs
thanks to my parents.

Today, i woke up at freakning 7 alright! Went on the computer and started arranging my files/de-lagging it and burning of videos.
Now my videos are only left with i think 57gb?
Previously was at least 10gb more, mind you!
Then i went to school for the entrepreneurship club thing, ya-da ya-da. Did our group the report, we were damn eleborative. LOL.
Then went to Paya lebar after that to make my spectacles; went This Fashion- they wanted to try on clothes; finally i hit the gym.

I feel like plopping down on my bed now; snore and sleep.
That is how tired i am. (:
I watched a video titled: Welcome to Dongbanggol!
*hint*
I am very tired.
Going to sleep le.
bleagh.

Bye! (:
-meeting junsu later

2006-03-15T07:40:00.000+08:00

I am now sneezing and coughing my life out of me.
Damn sick.
Later, i am going to make my spectacles =D
Sian. I got 60 gb of videos, boasting of 300+.
BUT, they are named messily =O=;;
I GOT THE SHINHWA COKE CAN!

yaya! i just saw the thailand LG AD! like wtf.
ITS DAMN NICE CAN!
though i saw yunho many times but i figured that i would not mind all the sg-reans falling in love with yunho! LEAVE JUNSU TO ME!
xD

2006-03-12T12:45:00.000+08:00

jjaksarang ; ` vrrrr.- says:
tag nicer!
jjaksarang ; ` vrrrr.- says:
eh
-©SurReaLiTy €eZIeR Ying ♡ ; ! People changes but memories never. says:
who?
jjaksarang ; ` vrrrr.- says:
i mean update nicer post!
so i am back again. =P

EATING DUCK NOODLES LATER =P
yummy! -someone is jealous-

keke.

i seriously still thinks i am putting on weight.
aish.
yesterday after reaching home at 4.30, i slept all the way till 10.30 to 11 pm.
Stayed up all the way till this morning 6.30 a.m..
I like how staying up at night can makes you feel relaxing, tranquil and peaceful.
Something which i have not felt for a long time.

Study. Downloading. Sleeping. Eating= my daily lifestyle.

Michelle Cynthia Aw WeiLing
-shes a funny girl. DAMN sociable can? ~~Short~~, adorable, cute, DISGUSTING when she speaks in the ew ew voice.
Er, loves brian? (Loves HIM more than me)
=(
Treat my arm as a roast duck leg.
well, seeing her reminds me of not yet roasted pig.
thats all.

*treat this as my testimonial for you*
ain't i great? (;

2006-03-12T12:32:00.000+08:00

I wonder...

if i passed away tomorrow,
how many of those who knows me will cry for me.
if i passed away tomorrow,
how many of those who knows me might not even knows about it?
if i passed away tomorrow,
how many will pine for me?
if i passed away tomorrow,
how many, how much, who?

I have a crush on Junsu. =P
An infatuation, i think.

Playing now is lee sooyoung's Grace

2006-03-12T03:08:00.000+08:00

No mood to blog. (:

Junsu loves me.
that's for sure! (:

2006-03-07T17:52:00.000+08:00

my caps key ain't working.

(:
junsu & minwoo
i am for you.

across the azure blue sky
my cupid arrow fly
further away from me;
closer to him
to that one guy who can
make my heart skip a beat
make me smile widely
make me cry endlessly
from me who is always
waiting for this unrequited love
waiting for his ever signals
waiting for him to return my love
love is path between me and him.

junsu x)

2006-03-06T17:25:00.000+08:00

It is the leftover scars and half healed wounds from the betrayal.
Trust takes time to build up.
I believe in a leopard never change it's spots unless, you are a changed person already.
The feeling that i had once felt ever so deeply and truly still comes out once in a while.
I am actually trying to erase this feeling.
Believe me, it is that hard.
It takes a century for people to bond.
A lie which is only thought up of within minutues can break the bond, ever.
All the time, i know we are just using each other. So why not, stop it now.

Some people changes, but some didn't at all.
It is their attitude towards you which changes.
Ain't that so?
Think. Put yourself in the other party's shoes before making assumption.

I am just a plain jane trying to figure out what is going through my head these past few days.
What have been going in between us.
And, i am kind of sick of it.
Sometimes, i think, why not just pull away from it.
It ain't that easy.
Philosophy, what am i saying ain't all that.
All i am asking of you is to think and put yourself in other people's shoes.
Have the courage to ask and not making assumption behind people's back.
To think if my bestfriend did that, i would have already slapped her.

Tears just flow endlessly
Streaming down my face
Heart thumps wearily
A frown and no smiles
-This is the me facing you

People changes but memories never.
-This thought is keeping me alive

2006-03-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

I would get so depressed whenever i thought of my weight two years ago.
My weight ballooned up due to sheer laziness.

2006-03-05T12:48:00.000+08:00

I want to vent out my frustrations.

2006-02-28T19:55:00.000+08:00

Tomorrrow is doom day. I am going to get back my SS and history elect. papers tomorrow.
Overall, my common test was okay.
Some quite badly done.

I changed my blog's song.
Today is my dhat girl's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELE! =D

Haha. Classes today was boring as usual.
Now, i am having a sudden craving for poh piah! (:

-Changing the song-

I feel like i am a different person.

I love Junsu!
Oh Yes! I do!
He's for me, not for you.
And if by chance, you take my place!
I'll take my fist and smash your face!

=P

2006-02-23T23:51:00.000+08:00

I am so lazy to blog.
=[

But, Happy birthday DADDY! XD

2006-02-19T11:05:00.000+08:00

" 11. Changmin Solo Stage - "The Way You Make Me Feel" / "Caught Up" - This performance totally blew me away. His dancing has improved so much and the choreography fit him well because he didn't look lanky or awkward at all. So there he was, in his suit, dancing with 6 girls around him. There was lots and lots of touching, groping, griding and gyrating. Changmin kisses the hand of one. One dance step had Changmin and a female dancer do a body wave together *ahem* Another part had the girl lying down on Changmin's back while he would bend forward. Oh! I think the part that got the most screams was when Changmin was in the middle and then a dancer kneels infront of him and he gyrates his hips :x Naughty Changmin. So much spazzing and that was just the first part of his solo. Next, he danced to "Caught Up" by Usher. He was lipsinging along and he'd throw mischievous smiles towards the crowd and the camera. The last pose he does has all 6 girls covering him...then they lights go out."

I am jealous.

2006-02-18T08:06:00.000+08:00

I would not be online =)
I always suggest stupid ideas.
I am stupid.

Guess what? If my maid cannot find my wallet by end of today, i have officially lost it.

Sighs.

Chem: 38/50
Phy: 19/35 =(
Maths: 23.5/25
A maths: 20/25
History: 6/12
SS: 5/12

That means i have to study alot this weekend.
I shall try not to be vulgar anymore.
Today is Changmin's birthday.
Happy Birthday dude!

A new year changes you and me
A new year changes she and he
A new year, a new beginning for all of us
A new year, a reason why things are so different

Her heart aches as she thought of it
My heart aches as i heard of it
Both of our heart aches when we knew about it
About the changes going through you that we cannot deny

About you, good words i have to praise
About you, everything of you is grace and gay
About you, things started to change
A new year, everyone is thinking the same

2006-02-14T19:52:00.000+08:00

Shortcut` without michelle and cynthia went out today to celebrate V'day.
=/

I had embarrased myself again. =(

2006-02-12T09:49:00.000+08:00

Me n grace cut our hair at Pointers` yesterday <3
I cry like a baby when i watched "A song for lady" mv and MICHELLE WAS LAUGHING! (at the mtv)

-.-"

I got subbing to do, emaths/amaths/ chem hmk.
Chinese hmk too =/

Kim Junsu,
Nomu sarang hae
Jincha sarang hae yo
Sarang hae yo

AHHHHHHHHHHH! I WANT TO GO TO THE DONGBANGSHINGI'S CONCERT! CHANGMIN AND JUNSU IS SO FREAKING HOT!
XD
I WANT CHANGMIN =D
*get ready to be slashed/killed*

Haha.

2006-02-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

Did my pre-test and i failed. WOAH. HAHA.
My fucking menstruation came during chinese and i did not know and cluelessly went for P.E and realised it only after reccess. E maths was horrible because i was squirming as the though of me menstruating and not having any secure cover= LEAKAGE and i am terribly afraid of that therefore i zoomed off to the toilet with Supanee after asking Mrs Tan during the start of English.
We spent english using safety pins forming our name and secretly trying to take picture of it without getting caught. LOLS! =D

Went out with ShortCut` after that and play, eat and had fun.

Tomorrow got the lang du session, it is freaking stupid and i dislike attending the class.
Aish.

You know, in the Ashita Ha Kurukara mv, YUNHO LOOK LIKE HE WAS FORCED TO SING and his EXAGGERATED actions was abit too over.
Not that i am biased towards yunho because i at first i thought that figure was MICKY and i was SHOCKED! But then i fast forward and i realised it was Yunho!
WAHH, changmin's hair fly fly fly during the mv= SUPER HANDSOME
Somemore there were alot of cameos of changmin.

Obviously,
My junsu= FREAKING HOT, HANDSOME AND SEXY!
Gawd, he was so angelic and perfect, his voice`awww!!!
I love Junsu!

2006-02-10T06:17:00.000+08:00

2.4 pre-test is up later.
I had 5 chao xie to do last night but thanks to michele, i was only left with 3.
Totalling of 4000 words, i am serious!
I might be cutting my hair after school; i dread the pre-test. There is still alot of phlegm in me and i do not think that i will do well.

Aish, yesterday reached home arnd 5+ cause i was kept in till 4.45! wtf, sighs.
Very tired nowadays lorh.
Ytd so many ppl msged me OVER THE NIGHT, i didnt realised i didnt put myself as away.
I was too tired to think/perhaps check.

Happy Birthday to SHIWON =D

HANKYUNG IS SUPERB!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

TIRED. FRUSTRATED. NEGLECTED.

Changmin want to go on a blind date with me. Lalala!
=P

2006-02-07T18:16:00.000+08:00

I GOT VALENTINE DAY PRESSIES TO PREPARE =/

waha. Today was OKAY. OKAY as in no scoldings or so whatever. Basically is just like a normal school day ^^

Michelle watching nn6 RR, damn its funny.
ESPECIALLY EPISODE 21. LMAO!
Mafia boss and haircut =D

Yesterday was Yunho's birthday.
Yunho oppa, happy birthday!

Happy Birthday to you!
You are born in the zoo!
With mongy and monkeys!
Happy birthday to YOU!

Saengil Chukahapnidah
Saengil Chukahapnidah!
Yunho YAH BABO YAH!
Saengil Chukahapnidah!

;D Ain't i so nice?

Tomorrow got geog test. =/
I MUST REMEMBER TO BRING THE HP FOR JINGHAN!
-to whom i am so apologetic too as i keep forgetting to bring.

YAYY! I DL-ED XMAN! (with hyesung and shin ae)
I super curious to how shin ae willl be on the variety show lorh! I MEAN, SHE IS MINWOO'S EX.
There must be something about her that attracted minwoo.

2006-02-06T17:45:00.000+08:00

I HATE CHINESE BECAUSE OF FUCKING NG AH NOI!
-disgusting bitch.

2006-02-04T19:47:00.000+08:00

I just finished browsing michelle's blog.
Its amazing how deep her love for changmin is.
I think she will cry if changmin hurt himself.
Junsu. Kim Junsu. Jun xiu.
Sometimes i wonder when will he know of my love for him?
It is always worth waiting for/fighting for that only one which you love. Ain't it so true?
Sad to say, we are actually strangers and he does not even know of my existence.
Truth so depressing yet so true; my heart thumps when he smiles.
My heart goes all out for him when he laughs/ sticks out his tongue.
My heart yearns so much for him that i seriously think i am living in my own world.
My heart wants him so much yet he is million of miles away.
My heart wants to acknowledge him so eagerly until his name is already carved.
My heart is all for Xiah Kim Junsu.

I claim you as mine even though i doubt you know of me.
I deem myself yours even though you do not know me.
My heart long ago belongs to you when i first saw you.
You steal my heart and infiltrate my throughts even though you never spoke to me.
This is how strong my affection for you is.
I am very amazed by my feelings; amazed at how deep it can goes.
Why even bother writing all these?
You will never know of it anyway.

Xiah Kim Junsu, we are one whole.
-This thought will forever stay with me till i have a change of heart one day.
One day, may that be years; forever till then, i really love you.

I find myself so stupid all times.

2006-02-03T06:17:00.000+08:00

Sometime it is just the feeling of forgotten that make us strive
Sometime it is just the feeling of neglection that make us work
Sometime.

Oh fuck, i do not even know what i am talking about.
Today is the last day of the week, HOORAY!
I hate fucking school, it is just retarded.
I am tired =/

2006-02-01T19:59:00.000+08:00

WHEE! I CAN WEAR THAT SHIRT.
XD

FITS TOO! =D

Lols.

So much stuffs to be done; So lil time given

I am coughing my life out of me. =/
I am still very sick. Thank You!

2006-01-29T20:58:00.000+08:00

DONGBANG WAS IN INDONESIA, AYALA YESTERDAY!
They were also at KL, malaysia on FRIDAY!
GOSH!

2006-01-29T11:38:00.000+08:00

Today is CHINESE NEW YEAR!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! XD
My fever is still ongoing. =/

2006-01-28T07:50:00.000+08:00

I had fever of 39.2 degrees celcius last night.
Now my temperature is at 38.2 degrees celcius!
I am in such a bad shape for Chinese New Year!

2006-01-27T21:19:00.000+08:00

I am effing tired but at least i bought a shirt (:
HAHA!

Today after school, we went to michelle's house for a change of clothes.
WE, the ladies; shortcuts took only slightly more than two hours =O
I was part of the reason; cause i was yelling "MICHELLLE! HELP ME STYLE MY HAIR?!"
or either i heard grace going "MICHELLE! I USE YOUR BAG ARH?! WHERE IS IT?!"
or either "like that ok or not? nice?"
LOLS!
At first cynthia tried but failed, michele- i do not allow a girl who cannot even cook sausages and style her own hair to touch my hair! Grace failed too; that was because i was horrified by her way of styling although it was quite COLL!
So in the end, michelle do until quite nice XD
But once i stepped out of the door, WHOOOSH!
Wind was blowing my HAIR in all direction and sadly michelle did not used much wax, my poor hair went from avg> nice> messy.
-_______________-
I was peeping into the car's windshield while walking so as to tidy up.
I KNOW I AM VAIN!

Then we reached orchard around three? We went to far east and ate Burger King.
I laughed many times over there and grace; BEING MY HONEY she actually went "Do i know you?"
In the end, michelle saw my horrified expression and pointed at grace and asked me, "Do you know her? I don't know her!"
LOLS!
We ganged up against her =P

Then after that they went this fashion, clothes abit too S-SIZE for me and michele so we went outside and bought that cheesy sausage meal from CHIPPY!
IT WAS DELICIOUS!
XD
While waiting, we were quite bored. We waited for them for 45 minutes to an hour.
So some pictures;
([S]pictures will be posted some time later due to my phone not being able to connect to the comp[/S])
wait awhile

AND I SAW A CHANGMIN-DONGHAE LOOKALIKE.
DAMN, hes taken.

Then after dear Miss Grace Chow got her clothes, she went to find her shoes.
But she couldnt find her pair of SHOES.

As it was getting late, cynthia, michelle and i went to HEEREN to get the presents while michele and grace stayed at far east to look for her shoes.
In the end, after buying the presents, they arrived at HEEREN without the shoes =/
We went to 37degrees but didnt see anything we liked.
Then we went down to ground lvl and grace wanted to show me this shirt she finds nice.
IT WAS NICE BUT THEY ONLY HAD SIZE M.
In the end, i still bought it cause michele was like "YENNYING! we must motivate you! You cannot wear also must slim down until can wear" -______________-

WOW!
=X

Anway, went home. WE RAN LIKE SIAO DURING THE TO-THE MRT TRIP!
Today was fun but also tiring.

Some random writings;
I am amazed at
How wide our differences are
How different our personality is
How we can decipher each other
How we are trying to know each other

I wonder.

2006-01-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

Just gotten off the phone with grace/cynthia and michele.
I am waiting for michelle to back (:
Tomorrow going to the esplanade!
Haha!

CHANGMIN IS SO FREAKING CUTE!
Now, i know why girls would want to steal his underwears.
I want toooo <3

YAYY!

Junsu loooks sooo OMG CUTE SEXY HOT in the BBQ CHICKEN CF! XDDD
Dongbang rock my day!
I saw SUJU on tv today and i was wondering where was KangIn!
Though seeing sungmin/donghae and heechul makes me forget about everything.

Just utterly besotted with them.

2006-01-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

"The reason I stay awake,
the reason I sleep,
the reason I dream,
the reason I live,
the reason I would die for,
the reason that binds me together,
the one that keeps me going,
max choikang shim changmin."
-michelle's blog

I should do a poem too.

Thoughts of you wanting me,
thoughts of you caressing me,
thoughts of you sexing me up,
thoughts of you shouting my name,
In reality, it is just a dream.
Just for you, Kim Junsu
Only for you, Kim Junsu
Everything i do is for you, Kim Junsu
I love you, Kim Junsu.
You are the reason why my heart still beats.
-yennying's

My love is beyond boundaries,
My love for Yunho cannot be limited just by mere words
There is too much to express my love for Yunho
A feeling so indescribable, i cannot put down in words
Why should i bother saying when only i myelf can understand
To put it simply; I love Yunho
-grace's

LMAO! Rachel says mine is cheesier than michelle's.
I AGREE =D

Purposely one mah. I got cynthia's present le!
YU
PP!

2006-01-25T06:24:00.000+08:00

I am going to go to school in a few more minutes time. Slept at 6+ to 9+ yesterday, then chat to michelle till 10.30 before i went to sleep again!
Quite tired.
BT totally rock. 6 gb in two days. =(
My computer left only 145mb and i had to delete warcraft.
Aish.
Need to save all my precious files soon.
DL-ed goong, wolf, rainbow romance, loveletter and xman.
HAHA!

Today got maths test; i think i am going to fail.
History test; i do not think i will fail.
LOLS; thats all le bah.

MICHELLE IS CHANGMIN OBSESSED.
-i just went to her blog.

2006-01-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

I am staring at his heechul's crotch, finding that obvious buldge that meii told me.
SHE SAYS YUNHO'S ONE IS HUGE TOO. =X

LOLLS.

Today was basically OK-AY.
I study my history and basically slacked.
Just realised i have only 3 pair of pants and two skirts but ONLY TWO TOPS!
Now, have to go and buy le lorh.
sighs.
My schedule so tight how to?

I LOVE SAMSUNG; LG; SONY ERICSSON AND CK

2006-01-22T22:24:00.000+08:00

Me: changmin topless! GOSH!
michelle: changmin strip naked also ok one larh. I see alot of time le!

2006-01-22T19:18:00.000+08:00

I love my girlfriend and bf.

And everyone who cheered me up.
Thank you for everything.
You know who you all are! (:

2006-01-22T12:52:00.000+08:00

I am no long tired; infact, soul-ess.

2006-01-22T02:17:00.000+08:00

I dislike the fact that when i am not smiling because i wake up from the wrong side of the bed and i got accused of being pissed-of.
FUCK. You want, you give me money, i go change my facial expression if that satisfy you.

Something that i have wanted to comment on long ago.

2006-01-22T01:32:00.000+08:00

Would you believe it if i say i am crying at this very moment.
The aching pain in my heart is unbearable.

Behind the facades and the smiles;
Lips trembling and my eyes frown

Away went the facades and the smiles;
The flowing tears run them down

I hate the way humans find excuses for themselves.
Have you ever try to do something to make youself not feel left out?
Everyone does that, who does not?
If they do not, is it then my fault?
It takes two hands to clap since i am the major party, i am actually very hurt.

I wish i could talk to rachel now.
I need her.
Because my eyes are nearly swollen from crying.

2006-01-22T01:18:00.000+08:00

Memoirs of the Geisha is interesting.

2006-01-21T22:36:00.000+08:00

I have a date with charlene and rachel this upcoming friday.
Boyy, i definitely do look forward to seeing my two favourite girls again.
I MISS CHARLENE MORE THAN RACHEL!!!
Her "heehehhehee" laughter. gosh, its WEIRD.
She laughs at every single thing which ain't funny.
I was telling her jokes and she was going "ok...".
Out of 5 jokes, she laugh at 2.
I tell her like almost ten jokes, feeling exasperated.
Then rachel went "Yennying, i wanna hang up, you are not funny and you are telling stupid joke ( HELLO! ITS NOT MY FAULT THAT CHARLENE DOES NOT UNDERSTAND SEXUAL JOKES AND I DO NOT WISH TO CORRUPT HER MIND!) !
-_____-ll and then CHARLENE LAUGHED!"
Stupid rachel who keeps eating the whole day, thats when charlene laughed when i told her about rachel's recent eating habit.
I say, she is a weird girl who finds secondary three life RELAXING and STRESS-FREE; at a height of 1.69 and she is still growing at an alarming rate!

(:
-She's my char.

2006-01-21T22:17:00.000+08:00

I am exhausted.

I wake up at6.30 am this morning and reached school around 7.30 a.m..
Had SS make-up lesson and then went with grace to the chinese oral-drama thingy.
It lasted till 11.24 and my piano lesson was suppose to be starting at 11.30 a.m. Due to my theory homework not being done, i walk till Katong Shopping Centre and started frantically trying to flag for a taxi.
Boom. I reach there at 12.
LOLS.
Michele waited till my lesson ended and we went to eat at yoshinoya! It was fun (:
I love suan-ing her.
Later on, i went with my aunt to town to get my shoes and handbag.
Reached home around 9+.

OHH YEAH. MY PACKAGE ARRIVED YESTERDAY!
DBSG RISING SUN 5TH PHOTOBOOK! XD
SUPER JUNIOR ALBUM TOTALLY ROCK!
XD

My nike sneakers. FUNKY COLOURS.

TVXQ- Rising Sun 5th Storybook <3
It contains a 8 inch by 8 inch photobook of DONGBANG!
Six 8 inch by 8 inch sheet of stickers
Rising Sun CD + VCD (which includes rising sun mv/making of rising sun/japan tour news)
CHANGMIN IS SO HOT.

i shall post the super junior one tomorrow. i am too tired.

2006-01-20T06:10:00.000+08:00

MINWOO IS SINGLE ONCE MORE.

i am happy*

2006-01-20T05:28:00.000+08:00

DBSG calendar is like trucking 32 dollars after my 24 dollars off.
Its 73 x 52

ARGHH.
theyaretempting.

I is loving shinhwa harder.

Shinhwa= Everlasting Mythology