Monday, April 10, 2006
Often everything that is revolving around me felt so surreal.
Sometimes spastic and fake- as if taunting the devil inside of me.
I find myself reaching out to touch it, hence gripping it tighter and swirling into self-deception so as to create a fairytale for myself.
Then when i thought that everything was perfect, my world crumble into pieces.
Destiny-fate-karma, how mankind deceives themselbes.
Spread my wings and soar higher but instead i am lost into the vast abysses of space and time.
One word. One conclusion and one explanation.
Reality.
By the way, MICHELLE MADE ME LAUGHED HELLA LOADS ON FRIDAY TOO. <3
She also made me lost my appetite by talking about elephant shit and some philosophy book on some illness that she went talking about it for the whole day.
I had noticed a trend in the michelle-ness talkshow, for January 2006- it was the twins. February 2006- it was her cinderella (GOODNESS SAKE! i had actually thought it was HEECHUL!) Mid-march 2006 (continuing)- Her funny guy (arihant)-however his name is spelled. LOl.
Eunice asked me why did i not post?
Now i am going to ask her in my blog, why did she not tag? >:[
ACTUALLY i think that many of them out there did not tag too!
Saturday started off with a boring morning but ended with me wondering whether i had gained any weight :x
My relatives came over on friday! MY COUSIN IS SO CUTE!
Sunday was as usual busy because it was my mom's birthday! =D
Regarding the whole jaejoong controversy, i only hope he had understood what it means by being a SINGER- simplified, a famous person. Though his punishment met out by AVEX jap co. was harsh but i think they tried their best to settle this whole inccident peacefully.
Jaejoong oppa, i will be behind you all the way.
Stardom
Sometimes i just want to let the devil inside of me to run amok
Often i want to be just like any other teenager that drink` party n drive.
Amidst the endless night, i find myself wanting a company- a girlfriend.
Why can't i let go of all these?
The attraction of stardom is too great; it is like a dream to good to be true.
However the price of freedom is too heavy too.
Interest soon became a must-do; just like a performing robot.
Actually with a smile plastered on my face, my heart is breaking within.
Nonstop of practicing, dancing and singing; this is my life.
With a wave or smile from me; girls go crazy.
How much do they know of the real me? They stood there with their support by buying my albums- i earned their money.
They shrieked, they screamed, they yelled, they pulled my hair`clothes`touched me.
I want to yell out loud, "I AM NOT A SPECIMEN ON EXHIBITION!" -but i can't.
Praying to god, i can only be thankful that i have my family and the rest of the guys with me.
-Is that how they feel at times?
7:05 PM
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