Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Once in a lifetime, fly to the stars..
That sentence had triggered the flow of my tears. Some things just cannot be explained in words, love can't. It is just this sense of relief? satisfaction? proudness? sadness? that i am feeling.
From march 24th 1998 all the way to today, 10th may 2006- they made me proud that i am their fan.
(yes,imaybeoneoftheircountlessfans butilovethemmorethanwordscansay)
I will never regret the countless number of foolish actions which i had did, typed or said.
They are more than an idol. They are what made me remember most of my precious moments, they keep my diary mind book in check. They make me reflect on what i am today, on how much i have changed.
They have matured and so do i.
Many things had changed since 2003. It was only three years ago but.. it seems so long.
It is not love, not an infactuation, not a crush, not just idolising. It is feeling? attraction? memoirs? which words cannot express.
Perhaps the reason why i am wanting to drift away is the fact that they will be gone in just a flash of light, i do not want 2006 to end.
ShinHwa WILL WIN a DAESANG this year, and it is not ONLY ONE.
Many bonsangs too.
Two years without your source of inspiration`love`hope, not even knowing their current situation and all.
Imagine how you would feel?
I am trying to not imagine it.
I am not afraid of getting my hopes up high.
I am only afraid of letting my heart cry.
The way it aches when it cry
is so different from
The way my heart speaks when my hopes are up high
It is so different that i fear the changes in me, once again.
9:03 PM
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